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2018 review

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Dhentedhen..
I am back again to review my last 365 days and then post some goals for next 365 days. One thing at a time. Lets start with what happened with me and what happened to me this year.

1) Books : This one always on top every year because I somehow manage to conquer this goal. I started this year with a goal of 40 books in my mind. I was somewhat sure that I wont be able to climb the mountain this time. Nevertheless, I decided to give it a try. I manage to read some interesting books during this time. But towards the end of the year I changed the goal to achievable 30 books which I managed to complete just a few hours back.
2) Travel: I traveled the most this year. I haven’t traveled this much in my whole life. Learning from traveling have put some more sense into me. In the next year 2019, I hope to travel as much as I did this year.
3) Connections: There is a spark when you get know people who think like you. Who want to know you. Who want to connect to you. This year, I tried to make more connection. Connecting some more strangers and incorporating their views, ideas in my life have made some difference.
4) Heartbreak: Once again!! It was my foolishness to approach someone who was out of my bounds. I wish I had never approached or entangled myself. The whole experience left me stranded which led to a clueless, confused second half. It was this time where I my focus, my interest which I haven’t been able to find till date. I have kept myself busy socializing, reading and stuff I never tried before this.
5) Gym: Marked as check. If you remember, this has been on my goals for last couple of years. What made this happen was the heartbreak. There was anger and rage which I had to divert somewhere which otherwise would have created a whole lot of new problems for me. Four good months spent in gym making me feel better about my body.

That sums up my 2018. Nothing much has happened apart from the above events. I don’t know what’s in store for 2019, but I really hope for something good.

Till then..
Think Nonsense…

Mistakes

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​People are always envy of your knowledge. Make one mistake and they’ll blame it on your knowledge. Laugh,Learn, Move on. Because they don’t know that what you are today is all because you decided to face consequences for your mistakes. 

Sometimes… You may make the same mistake twice. Maybe more than that. Once you have committed the mistake, You would be wondering how did I made the same mistake again? And then you’ll ask the same question again. It happens. You are human. Humans make mistakes. You cannot afford to drag this situation. Take a step towards the solution. Even that means another mistake. Try not to repeat the mistake. 

That said, If you keep repeating the mistakes, Then you should look for help. Get a third person perspective in that situation. An experienced or wise person is the best choice in such a case. But if you don’t get that, You can even try the dumbest person you know. Remember, You are looking for a different perspective. It doesn’t have to be a right one. 

Your whole life is based on mistakes. Sometimes, Even you are the result of a failed condom or contraceptive. That shouldn’t stop you from living your life. You always get an opportunity to correct your mistakes. What’s important is you should keep looking for that opportunity. 

Till you make another mistake… 

Think Nonsense.. 

Age is NOT just a number

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​No. Age is not just a number.

It’s what you have achieved and what you have failed to achieve. 

It’s people you love and those who hate you. 

It’s what you love and what you hate. 

It’s you being stubborn and it’s you being compromising. 

It’s letting new people into your life and losing some. 

It’s everything. 

It’s everything compressed into two digits. Sometimes three.. 

So NO. Age is NOT just a number. 

Pain

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​Pain is generally an unpleasant emotion. A spontaneous response from body to something it doesn’t want to keep inside. It is an alarm to some threat that is being caused to damage us. Starting with the first moment outside the womb, This one emotion always stays with you till the end of your life. Sometimes, It is a supplementary reaction to another emotion. Like when you laugh too much, You feel the pain in your stomach or cheeks. 

When I was a kid, little things used to cause pain. The obvious reaction to pain was the crying. This is often the case with everyone. Because that is the period of your life when you don’t know how to handle the pain. You aren’t used to it. As you age, you learn to suppress your pain. The intensity of which varies from person to person. 

There is one important fact that lies behind the pain. Many of us,  either aren’t aware of the fact or they ignore it. I found it the hard way. That fact is… Pain is what because of which you feel you are alive. How else would you find out that you are alive? Pinch a dead person and it won’t react. Pinch a live person, There will be some reaction to it. That’s what makes pain special. Pain makes you feel you are alive. That you exists. 

Over the years, As I said before, I have learned to suppress pain. That’s normal until a couple of days back.. I felt terrible. I questioned my existence. It was a small incident. I went to a hospital to get an injection. The syringe always gives you pain. That was my experience. But that day, I couldn’t feel anything. I was confused. Shocked. It happened again today when I didn’t feel anything after the injection. Am I dead? This question crossed my mind a thousand times. I couldn’t answer. I just tried to fool myself by telling that the nurses are good. They must have been trained well. What could have been other reason? 

Still, At the time of writing this I am expecting pain. I want some pain. Pain to make feel I am alive. 

I am not dead… Yet..

Also, I am not a Ghost Writer… 

So until I feel some pain..
Think Nonsense.. 

Happy new year

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Hello guys!! Remember me? The donkey who used to blog about the usual shit? Yeah!! It’s me. Back with the mandatory new year’s post. First things first. I wish everyone who is reading this post, A very happy and prosperous new year. Hope this year turns out to be better than the one which just ended.
So, This year was quite a turn around for me. Till halfway through, Everything was going as I had planned. And then suddenly, My parents forced me take up the government job. Are you effing kidding me??? I got effed up for almost one and half year trying to get clients and settle my business. Now suddenly you want me to get into government job? Wow!! You guys are awesome.

Regardless of my opinion, I had to take up the job. I wasn’t sure. I wasn’t sure just like the zillions of times I changed my job previously. But there’s one thing I was pretty sure about. As sure as my death. And that was.. My parent’s cannot be wrong when it’s a matter of my life. After the struggle in first half of this year, I finally had some less struggling life. I have taken some really careless and harsh decisions in my life. And for once, I thought it’d be better to stick with my parents advice. Till date, it’s all good. 

This year, I felt, I entered into the next level of spirituality. I was a part of Bhagwat Saptah, Pooja of Lord Krishna which is lasts for 7 days, at my ancestral house. They were the most hectic days of this year. It was Lord Krishna showing me the right way. Letting me to look at the world through his eyes so that I could identify the good, the bad and the ugly. I was able to see through many masks during these days. I was able to identify the two faced dear ones. They are dangerous species of termites which will eat you from inside and before you know, You’ll collapse. May Lord bless them with wisdom.

Loss of dear ones always hurt. This year, I lost my aunt. You always love the ones who care about you. You reciprocate the feelings unless you are an asshole. Losing her suddenly was a blow to me. For the first time in two decades, I cried in public. I don’t know how people will take it. They may say I am weak. I am not a man. Phuk you assholes!! I am a human being with emotions. I hope she rests in peace. 

Usually, For the past 5-6 years, Second half of the year has been always painful. It always lead to unbearable pain and suffering. But this year was quite the opposite. I am happy like never before. I always loved my life despite suffering. But this year, I love it a lot more.
And towards the end of the year, Last week of the year to be precise, I discovered a whole new myself. I have never been so happy in my life. I traveled alone. I drove alone. Made new friends. And had a great time while doing so. It is just like Hindi film which ends with happy ending.

It’s been a great year. (Nope. I haven’t posted that video on Facebook. It sucks.) I would love to see this year repeat sometime in future. I wish..

Till then… Think Nonsense..